The Best & Worst Week

Before I write about my worst week I wanted to tell about my awesome vacation to Las Vegas with my Sweetie. This year on May 26th was our 10 yr anniversary. YEAH! We made it 10 yrs. Anyway we splurged and planned a trip for two to Vegas. Just us, No KIDS ALLOWED!! So we took a flight out of Twin Falls. We left on June 2nd & came back June 5th.We had a wonderful time! We went to the Disney Musical the Lion King, the Excalibur for dinner and a show of the Kings Tournament, and then to the Bodies and Titanic Exhibit! We stayed at the Circus, Circus hotel. It was GREAT!!! Now that my best week has come and gone I had to get back to reality. A week ago today I found out that the baby that I was carrying didn't have a heartbeat. We went in for an ultra sound and we were very excited about it. I was 4 months along. The tech started the ultra sound and she wasn't saying much so I kinda new something was not right. She left the room for a minute came back and said that we needed to go to the Drs. office right away. So we went over to the Drs. office and waited for about 30 minutes. The LONGEST 30 minutes of my life! He finally came in and told us that the baby didn't have any fetal heart tones. He was very good and explained that it is normal to feel sad and it's ok to grieve over this loss. I was very impressed with his words and concern for me. Anyway we scheduled for that following Friday for a D&E, A Dilation & Evacuation. I had to take some pills the night before the surgery to start labor. Then the Dr. goes in and evacuates the uterus by breaking the baby's bones and taking it out piece by piece. It kinds sounds grusome but then I thought it was the best way, better than having to deliver a still born baby. The loss of this baby has been really hard very heartbreaking. This has been the third baby I have lost over the years. For some reason this one was the hardest. I was really looking forward to having another baby in spite of all the challenges it can bring. I guess there was a reason why and I am not sure why the Lord wanted it this way. I never knew how much I could miss someone that I have never even met. I count my blessings that it wasn't something way worse.